Hey baby boy it’s mummy. I’ve been a little bit wild recently and haven’t been myself, some people would call it grieving I can’t remember half of it so I can’t call it anything. All I do know is that life has been so so different since you’ve been gone. I can’t believe your nearly 2! How is that possible I miss you so much Oliver. You was the perfect happy ending to our little family. Then since that night my heart has been so heavy and my mind so confused I didn’t know where my head was for a very long time. My darling please help mummy get daddy back she made some silly choices and wasn’t seeing clearly but now she’s ready to make big changes and descions to be with him. In the process I have to break someone’s heart and that’s very selfish and unfair of me. But I’ve been selfish and unfair the whole time. I wish I could turn back time and make things right with you. I love you so much Oliver to heaven and back again xxxxxxxxd